Saturday, December 30, 2006

Everyday Life 17: Precious Life

I do a lot of thinking when left alone at work. Usually things that leave an impact in my life cause me to think about these things for weeks at a time.

I completed the Xenosaga Trilogy (video games), and towards the end, I noticed and experience something. It was something that kind of bothered me. This may sound kind of weird to you, but bear with me. I played this game, and I got to know these character's and there personalities. When they hurt I hurt. When they smiled I smiled. So towards the end of the final game in the series, my heart broke. They started killing off some of the protagonists. Okay, so they killed off two, but that still affected me.

Jin Uzuki, the brother of one of the first characters in the beginning of the game (Shion Uzuki) gave his life to protect his Allies and friends from certain death, at the hands of there enemy, the Gnosis. It was done in dramatic fashion, and it made me very sad. I thought to myself, "Why did they have to kill Jin off. "He's the hero, the hero should always come out alive".

So I went to work today, and while I was there, I started thinking about life in General. Life is supposedly more precious than gold, yet blood is being spilled like it's "Fools Gold". So many lives are being snuffed out and there isn't anything that I can do about it.

Thanksgiving is one of the holiday's that is celebrated in our home. Noticed how I didn't write about it. It's because around 2 or 3 O'clock in the morning just before Thanksgiving is supposed to start, a young man's life was taken just down the street from our home. The police lights flashing up in my window, woke me up, and the sirens screaming down our street scared the living daylights out of me. My fear pales in comparison to what that young man's family must have and will be going through. I think his memorial is still up where he died. I heard that he was going to become a rapper. I'm not big on rap, but how do we know that he wasn't going to make it better? We won't never get that chance to find out.

What gives people the right to take another's life? How can they live with themselves? A beautiful person could be standing right next to me, and then there consciousness can dissipate in an instant. If only there was a way to prevent this. If only God had planted some kind of fail safe inside people, so they would feel what there victims felt. I even felt for Saddam Hussein. I know he killed millions of people, and I know he hates the US and it's citizens, but I can't say that I would want him dead. Then again the other option isn't good either. Murder's can spend the rest of there lives locked up, but will they regret taking the life, or will they regret getting caught and spending the rest of there lives lock up? I won't pretend to know the answer. If someone close to me, like my brother was killed, I don't know how I would respond. It's just that two wrongs don't make it right.

After the deep thought:

A few minutes before I closed the desk, there were two guys out in front of the store fighting. One had friends and they tried to break it up. The lone man must have said something, because the guy with friends came flying back toward the lone man and started yelling at him. I had to make them stop, by telling them that they are at a place of business. Who knows how that would have turned out. When will end? What will it take? This is another reason why I am losing faith in humanity's survival.

When will people open there eyes, and realize that life isn't "Fools Gold"

Wednesday, December 27, 2006

As Of Now!

Placing hand over Heart! (The Bible would be sacrilege)

I Charles Do Solemnly swear that I will not eat any junk-food of any kind for the next 365 days.

This includes:

Little Debbie snacks (oatmeal Creme pies, swiss rolls...etc)
Oreo Cookies
Reese's peanut Buttercups
banana pudding
Sour Patch Kids
ice cream (Excludes Popsicles)
Anything in The Candy aisle of the store I work at.
chili dip
cheese cake
fast foods (McDonald's, Burger King, Wendy's)
certain TV dinners (I will eat Healthy Choice, but not Stouffer's, Marie Callender's or Swanson).<---Failed
I welcome anything else that anyone comes up with.

Why have I set this goal so high? Because, I have been eating mostly junk-food all of my life and there is no telling how much damage I have done to my arteries. My body is out of shape. On top of this I have high cholesterol.The idea of dying from a heart attack or, being trapped within the confines of my body by a stroke, doesn't appease any part of my mind or heart. I've tried this before, but I didn't post it in my blog. I did that on purpose, because I didn't have any expectations to live up too. Not to mention that I saw mushrooms that reminded me of Ritz crackers one day as I was walking to work. Now I will post it here for the world to see. Hopefully that will be enough incentive to get me going.

I will also entertain any suggestions on foods that I can eat (I'm All Ears)

Eventually, I may start asking for exercising tips as well.

Wish me luck, I'm going to need it.

Friday, December 22, 2006

Computer's End: New Beginning

We see our hero entering the stage. He turns on his computer, and it takes forever to load. When it loads the computer is only a shadow of it's former glory. After being chewed by the antagonist: The Computer Virus, our hero's ally has a whole bunch of obstacles to overcome.

The hero: Charles tries his hardest to restore his computer to better days, but to no avail. There are a whole list of issues.

  1. The Search Results tool has been munched on. "What do you want to search for?" Well actually that wasn't even up there. The only thing left was the search companion. If you have Windows XP, you know them as, Rover, Merlin, Courtney, and Earl. In my case I was stuck with Earl. Couldn't search for anything on my computer.
  2. Windows Media Player was chomped on good. There was nothing left, but an error message and the Icon.
  3. There were certain buttons on websites that couldn't be pressed (more on that later on in the post)
  4. Norton Anti-Virus was a no show. Charles pressed that button a number of times, and like the famous Quote from Star Trek fame, "Resistance is Futile".
  5. System Restore wouldn't work either, it would get half way done and then a pop-up would appear saying that it would not work. For some reason Charles would keep getting his hopes up during each attempt.
I'm curious, have any of you ever been on a hopeless or hapless quest? Where every turn you take leads you back to square one.

Case in point:

I tried to fix my computer without using my restore disk. Everywhere I turned lead to a brick wall. I tried to use the virtual technician for my Mcafee software that I recently bought, but I couldn't press the button on the web-page. Mcafee was too powerful for my computer anyways. My computer wasn't able to reload Norton Anti-Virus software either. Every time I would try, I get the same result, buttons that I couldn't press and the live update software loading itself 20 times or more. Heck, when I gave in and decided that I wasn't going to bother, I went and Checked AOL journals to see if anyone I read there had posted. I Checked Omar's AOL Journal, and not only couldn't I see any of the pictures he had on there, but I couldn't even pressed the button to open the comments on my screen. I had to go directly to the page of a particular post if I wanted to see or post comments.

So what do I do? I decide that I am going to "put my pet out of it's misery". Reluctantly, I walk upstairs to my bedroom, and get the "poison", that will be the conduit for the end of my computer's suffering. Remember the "Hapless" question I posed to above. Well I do, and let me tell you, I never felt so helpless, frustrated, and useless, in my entire life. It was if something or someone, bigger and badder had entered the stage. It was as if something or someone was there, waiting in the wings with a diabolical plan that was always three steps ahead of me. Why you ask??? I don't know if I ever posted an entry on my AOL blog about it, but a year after I got my computer it's DVD player fizzled out on me. When I went to get my restore disk, I saw this...

Check the bottom right corner. Yep, it's a restore DVD. Some computer's get Restore CD's. I just happened to get a DVD. What a tangled web, my invisible adversary weave. I wonder, if all of this was planned from day one. This may seem a bit like paranoia, but what if I tell you that I had an invisible ally on my side.

What are the odds someone (oh lets say me) going on vacation at the same time that my computer decides it's ready for Dr. Jack Kevorkian? What are the odds of me finding a DVD drive for my computer on sale for $39.99. Where is Data or Spock when you need them? Anyhow, I found one at best buy, and came home and installed it. It took me a little over an hour, but I managed to get it working, and I am now the proud owner of a mismatching pair of disk drives.

Finally I was able to bid farewell to my woes and the woes of my computer. I erased the virus, and unfortunately, I erased all of my blogging history. Pictures, journal entries, ideas, potential posts, poems, HTML code that I had saved, animated GIF's that Brandy, Donna, and another friend made for me, music that I downloaded from and that I got from a friend, and the pictures from my sister's baby shower. Fortunately for me, the latter is still saved in the memory card inside of my old digital camera. Memories wiped clean, because someone wanted to design something to destroy rather than create. My computer may be a machine, but it was filled with memories. Memories that I had to destroy as a precautionary measure, to ensure that they to wouldn't infect my computer again, when I re-installed Windows XP.

There is a quote from my favorite comic. "With Great Power, Comes Great Responsibility". Whenever someone comes out with an great invention, there is always someone out there that finds a way to manipulate it, or turn it into a horrible monstrosity. They find the loophole and not give two shits about others feelings.

To the creator of the computer virus: If you are still around, and by some chance you are reading this, I hope your computer gets infected too. You deserve to know how it feels to be robbed of something special...Memories that fill ones Heart.

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

What a conversation and Theory

A conversation that I heard!

Camera Panning on a Bar at a Corner of the Universe.

A being walks through the door of the bar, and sits at the Bar and proceeds to talk to the bar-keep.

Trojan Boss: How you doin?

Com Puter: Fine sir, how about you?

Trojan Boss: This is a fine establishment you got running here!

Com Puter: Thank You, oh I didn't get your name?

Trojan Boss: That's not important, you can just call me friend.

Trojan Boss: In fact you can call me your best friend, and as your friend I can give you protection for a modest fee.

Narrator: A whole bunch of other beings walk in through the bar door!

Com Puter: Who and where did all of these people come from.

Trojan Boss: Oh them, they work for me, don't worry they like it here.

Com Puter: They are crowding the place and slowing down my response time.

Trojan Boss: I know isn't great, and look one of them has managed to hog two of your most favorite browsers all to himself.

Com Puter: Dammit, my owner won't be pleased! What should I do?

Trojan Boss: NO Problem, I have a solution for you.

Narrator: Trojan boss pulls out a box.

Trojan Boss: here is a defense for my friends, and all it will cost you is a modest fee every 365 days.

Com Puter: Okay I'll take it, are you sure it's safe?

Trojan Boss: Of course, it will get rid of those nasty bugs in NO time. Better hurry up, it looks like one of them is heading for AOL Software.

Narrator: Com Puter hands him the cash and opens the contents of the box.

Com Puter: whoa, that was close!

Trojan Boss: See if you have protection, you don't have to worry about those little buggers.

Com Puter: Your the one that brought them in here, they wouldn't have known about my "fine establishment" if it weren't for you.

Trojan Boss: If I didn't bring them here, someone else would have, and they wouldn't offer to protect you like I will.

Trojan Boss: Adios

Com Puter: Four letter words

You know that is what computer virus's seem like they were created for in my opinion. I just don't see any other purpose, other than someones idiotic sense of "Just to see if I can do it". I bet someone created the computer virus just so they could create the computer anti-virus software. Okay I may be wrong, but why are people like me going out there, spending about $50 a year on anti-virus software? Because we have too right? But why do we have too? Who created the "virus", the "Trojan" and the "spy and malware".

It makes me wonder!

If there was a way to create a virus, there should be a way to delete one permanently. I don't pretend to know anything about them, but shouldn't there be a way to wipe them out over the Internet with one fell swoop? I bet there is a possibility, but I know it wouldn't be profitable.

Which brings me to a conversation that I had with my computer.

Charles: What's wrong computer?

Computer: I don't feel good? I keep getting these LUXCOMS~1.EXE (20 at one point) files that won't stop popping up.

Charles: Let me have a look see! Hmmmm, I have know idea let me look and see what I can find online. It says that the LUXCOMS~1.EXE file is an file extension for Live Update for your Norton System Works. There is a virus attacking you

Computer: Delete it!

Charles: I can't! (panicking) I know what I will do, I will uninstall it

An hour goes by!

I try uninstalling and the damn thing won't. I go to Symantec's website, and I find the Norton Removal Tool, but that doesn't work. So I systematically remove every file one by one until I can use the removal tool. Took me another hour, because there some files that refused to be deleted. Then I went and bought McAfee Total Protection, and that wouldn't work. Every time I would try to download it to my computer, the program would freeze. It turns out that my computer doesn't meet the system requirements.

I have a virus attacking a anti-virus program, and I have a anti-virus program that is too much for my computer. I am at a lost. the only thing I can do is take my chances and not use anti-virus protection. I bet I'd have a better chance with a condom protecting my computer at this point. After all of that, now my search program is damaged. I wonder what else is ruined. I think I will end up reinstalling my windows software, and starting from scratch. I'm thinking about it. Heck I'm thinking about putting a new computer on layaway or something.

Friday, December 15, 2006

A quick note

The previous post wasn't meant for anyone in Blogland okay. I'm just frustrated over all of the He said she said bull that people seem to want to tell me. Whether it was gossip or my ears and brain being a shoulder to cry on. I can't take it, I just can't take it right now. I have problems too, and I am sure everyone else has one, or more in some way, shape or form too.

Again, it wasn't meant for anyone here!


Tuesday, December 12, 2006


Cast Members

Charles: Me-Oldest sibling

CC: Second Oldest sibling/oldest sister

Sequel: Second oldest sister*

Prequel: Youngest Sister*

*Okay Sequel is older than Prequel, but if you think about it in the "Star Wars" sense, then you will understand why I gave them those names.

If there is one thing that I hate in this world, it's Drama

I don't want no drama for your mamma, I don't like drama queens, I don't like drama kings. If it were up to me there wouldn't be any dramas on TV.

Why do some people feel the need to put emphasis on things that aren't bad to begin with. You want drama-Here I have some Drama for you!

Now that my siblings are getting older they are starting to do things that are, well a bit questionable.

If there is one thing I hate its sneaking. I know I am sneaky, and if I have to I will have a plan laid out with an escape route, but when someone else is trying (trying being the key word) to be sneaky with me nearby, it really irritates me.

If there is one thing that my step-father and I agree on, its that we don't trust the friends that my two youngest sister's have.

4 months ago!

One night the Sequel invited her friend over to stay the night. I wake up in the middle of the night, and I go downstairs to use the...Make a donation. As I am walking out of the donathroom (you know I have some pretty good hearing) I hear a conversation going on in my Sequel's room. It's not coming from two girls, its coming from a boy and a girl. So I decide to go back into the bathroom and I sit there to see if anyone comes out of the Sequel's room. No one budges, so I go downstairs and low and behold, Sequel's friend is downstairs with some boy in our living room. What do I do? I decide to go online with our computer to annoy her. She tells me that she is trying to sleep. I tell her sorry, and then her and the boy sneak upstairs to the Sequels room. Shhh...I think she thought that I didn't know.

The Sequel lets her friend's boyfriend out of the house, while I am on the computer still (one down), however the other boy remains. Eventually I get off of the computer and I sit in the kitchen in a chair until morning comes. I left out the part that made me stay up until the morning. It really, really pissed me off. Lets just say that if you were in my place, and you saw what I saw, you probably would have flipped out.

Morning comes and I am hidden on the side of the refrigerator, sitting in a chair so my sister can't see me (I told you I am sneaky). I hear her check the computer room to see if I was there. When she finds out that I am not, she gives the "Dead Man Walking" the all clear to come downstairs so he could leave. As they go out the kitchen door that leads to the exit door outside, I get out of the chair and I confront them. She was shocked, and the boy was scared, and I was in a rage from hell. I don't know what kept me from ripping his head off, but whatever it was (guardian angel perhaps...his or mines) kept me in check. She didn't explain herself, and when I brought up what the part that kept me up until morning, she said it had nothing to do with them. I let the boy go, and told her to never bring him here again, and I told her that she is disrespecting mom. After that I let it be. I didn't ever tell my mother, because she...well she...her health. I ignored the sequel for a few weeks until I could get over what she did.

Last month

Prequel invited her friend over! I was upstairs in my room watching some TV, when all of a sudden a familiar smell begin to creep up to my room. Eventually it became stronger and stronger, until I couldn't take it anymore. So I went downstairs to see where it was coming from. It was coming from the Prequel's room. I open the door without knocking and I ask what is up. Prequel said, "Nothing", but I did notice her friend cautiously and sneakingly trying (key word again) to put the top on the prequels shoe cleaner can.

Kids and Aerosol cans don't mix! Parents don't allow your kids to have access to them without your presence.

After the Sequel's events and all of the other events that happened I didn't want to be the bad guy. So I went downstairs to CC and asked her to go upstairs and investigate. She was hesitant herself, but she did, and lets just say that she wasn't any help. When my mother came home, I told her, and I left it alone.

Last week

I don't know what was said, because I wasn't outside. I do know what happened though. I heard a lot of yelling and a lot of screaming, from my attic bedroom. I come downstairs hearing CC yelling at my mom and The Prequel. I hear the prequel crying, and when she comes in the house, she has a red wring around her eye. CC punched prequel in the eye for saying something. I stayed out of that one, I wanted NOTHING to do with it. I let my mother handle it and that was that. I'm surprised that Prequel didn't get a black-eye. She was lucky! Whatever she said, I bet it was very Harsh. Sometimes her big mouth gets her into trouble. Prequel is only 11 years old and she is one of the biggest Drama Queens I have ever met. I miss the old Prequel, the one that was mature for her age. I guess she just "grew up".

There....There is your drama, you Drama Eaters. Does this satisfy your appetites? I just get tired of hearing how Person A has Slept with Person B's Boyfriend, or how someone has spread this nasty rumor about someone around. It's CRAZY and now people do this over there cell phones. Just last night, I saw something unusual. Twin Girls...Teenagers on Cell-phones walking out of the store talking about the drama in there lives (aloud).


Friday, December 08, 2006


It was 14 minutes until I had to leave work,
This woman came in, said something that hurt

Told me that it was cold outside and it was going to get worse,
"The low will be 14 degrees" as she is riffling through her purse

Processing my 14th bill was the last thing on my mind,
I didn't bring my scarf, and the wind is being unkind

My friend is complaining about her stupid engine,
it has to get warm, before she can begin,
her drive home, but I don't see why she's complaining,
I don't have a car so my patience is wearing thin.

"Don't you have a remote control starter",
"Yes, but somebody will steal my car"

At least you have a car!

Walking with my feet
Eventually walking in the street
14 degrees will do wonders for your cold drinks
It's just too bad that it can't do nothing for me
Just turn my legs into peptide concrete

Free at last as I step into the breeze,
the cold air clears my sinuses and helps me breathe

It's cold as hell, and I can barely see,
only the snow drifts and the desert in the streets

I forgot what it's like to tread in this weather,
If I was a horse than the wind is my tether

This is my last winter on foot, I can't take this any longer
slap the person who said, "Whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger

14 weeks and 14 days,
until I can say those 14 words that I like to say

"I'm glad it's spring, because it is my most favorite season of the year!"

Friday, December 01, 2006

Head's Up!

Before I get started let me just say, DON'T pick me, if by some chance God were to have everyone on Earth choose a person to look through there eyes to Judge Humanity.

Because of a letter that I got in the mail Monday, My faith in humanity has been shaken. I got letter claiming that I won a Jackpot! (a sarcastic Yay)

Here is what it says:


We are pleased to inform you that you are one of the declared winners of the DE-LOTTO SWITZERLAND SWEEPSTAKES held on JULY30TH, 2006 in the 2ND category. Ticket serial NO 387450146 drew the lucky winning NO38-44-66-79-91.

We have made many unsuccessful attempts to contact you regarding this winning. You are therefore entitled to the sum of $250,000.00 US Dollars. This is from a total prize money of $5 million US dollars that was shared and presented among the other 20 declared winners. Please note that all the participants were selected through a random computer ballot
system drawn from over 50,000 names.

Your claim number is DH/SUL-0011 and has been assigned to our North American Claims Affiliate. To expedite the processing enclosed is the check of $4880 US dollars which has been deducted from your winning. The sole purpose of this check is for the payment of applicable Government Taxes on your big winnings.


Please do not attempt to use this check until you call. You are advised to contact your claim agent immediately for further clarification as indicated below within 5 business days.


It may sound like it makes sense, but it doesn't. Every time I have ever seen lottery winners on TV , I have always heard of the taxes being taken directly from the Jackpot.


Why would someone send a letter in the mail, without a return address on the envelope???


I never entered any kind Lotto Contest in Canada, Switzerland or Even North Carolina for that matter.


I am a Western Union Agent (they don't know this I know). I have heard of this scam before, in fact we had and elderly woman come in and try to send the money (her own money), but our manager had her talk to a Western Union Operator.

Then there is this Check that they sent!

It says it has security features on the back, but there nothing fancy back there at all. In fact the only thing fancy about it is on the front. That gold sticker you see. If I had went and cashed this thing it, and sent the money. I would have had to pay this back. I would have been down the $4880.00, plus the $135.00 dollars to send $2975.00 to them.

I was surprised when I got this in the mail. I thought they only prey on the elderly. I am far from wrinkles, so I guess maybe they think I am gullible.

PLEASE, If you get something in the mail from Nicaragua or Canada From Mutual Financial Services or from any other "company" telling you that you won a Jackpot, don't follow there instructions. I know people hold on to hope that they will win big, but you will end up losing big time. If what I said isn't enough, contact Western Union or Money Gram first. This would save you a big time headache

I went to work Wednesday and showed it to my boss lady. She wanted to call Western Union and have me talk to them. I didn't want to, so she asked if I didn't mind if she called and spoke with them. I was okay with that, so she called them. They told her to call the police. So she called 311 for the non-emergencies. 311 ended up connecting her to 911, and they said they would send an officer.

Well five hours later an officer did arrive, and if you think I was mad about the mail I got, think again. I was more upset when the officer told me that there was nothing that could be done. She said she could file a report and take the letter and check, but eventually they would just throw them out. She said that all of it is considered junk mail. She also said something about it being outside of there jurisdiction, because the letter came from Canada

There are people out there that are being hoodwinked out of thousands of dollars just so some greedy A-Hole can fill there stomachs and pay there bills, and there is nothing that the police can do about it. Personally, I felt as if the officer didn't even care. Like she didn't want anything to do with it, and well if she is telling the truth than, our Justice system sucks.

Score one for the bad guys I guess! They seem to be winning a lot as of late, but then again my father did tell me something that stuck when I was a kid. This is Satan's system of things.

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Oh The Torture!

Meet my new friends!

It never fails!

After I get over one ailment, another one is waiting in the wings. The pain in my abdomen is completely gone now, and I am fine with that.

Blissfully fine!

Now I have a new one!

It started with a sore throat, mid afternoon last Saturday (which happened to be my first Saturday off since June).

Then by Saturday evening I got the sniffles and some serious congestion. I couldn't breathe, so I couldn't sleep. I can never sleep when my breathing is impaired. I have to struggle just to get enough air, so it takes its toll on me, and it interrupts my sleeping process.

So I stayed up all night and I headed for work at 6am on Sunday. I got through that shift and came home. By then the next symptom revealed itself.

A fever!

Sounds like the Flu to me!

I didn't get any sleep on Sunday either, so I got up and Watched Andromeda on DVD for a couple of hours. Then I kept going up and downstairs. I was hoping that if I came downstairs, some of the pressure from the congestion would ease up. Finally at about 8am Monday, I came downstairs and lied on the couch.

Good News-I got some sleep!

Bad News-It was about an hour of sleep!

I think the only reason I got that hour of sleep, was because my mother and my youngest sister were both downstairs waiting for my sister's bus to come. This may sound strange, but having felt there presence was soothing to me, and it helped me go to sleep. The reason why I think this theory has credibility is because, when they both left, I woke up. Subconsciously, I sensed that no one was there, and I woke up.

I laid on the couch for a couple more hours until I couldn't anymore and got up and ate.

Sometimes I wonder if I am more a slave, instead of a employee. Maybe that is partly my fault though. Eventually I walked to work, with barely no energy. The only thing I was running on was fumes and determination. When I got to work, I went to the break room and and sat down. Actually it was more like collapsing, but either way...

The good part about going to work was that a customer told me about something called Nostrilla that eases congestion. I new we didn't have that at my job, but I figured that maybe there was something similar.


I discovered Zicam! I put that stuff in my nose, and the congestion was gone. I still had the stuffy nose, but that unbearable pressure was gone.

Thank goodness!

Good News-I got some sleep!

Bad News-I woke up and the congestion returned!

I got about a couple of hours of sleep last night, and when I woke up I realized that the congestion was back. I wanted to take the Zicam again, but there is a 10-12 hour waiting period in between (torture). Eventually I went and laid in my bed, and I got a couple more hours of sleep. Four hours of sleep is a heck of a lot better than one. It was a blessing compaired to that.

So I got up and went downstairs to see that I totally lost in all three of the fantasy football leagues that I am playing in (Sucks). At least I did better in the pick'em and the NFL Home Team Challenge this week.

I still feel like crap. On top of the sore throat, congestion/runny nose, and fever I have some other symptoms.

Symptoms I have had before:

  • Sneezing (which I am about to do as I am typing this)
  • Liquids tasting funny when drank them
  • affected vision
  • itchy ear and throat
  • Plugged up ears (causing impairment to my hearing)
  • Yellow Mucus (snot factory is in the house!)
New one to me:

  • Body aches when I cough or sneeze
  • Sore throat moved further down (near Adam's Apple)
I never...Ever felt pain like I'm feeling whenever I sneeze. every muscle in my upper body aches when I sneeze. It feels like they are on fire. My mother just told me that I should call in, but I feel like there isn't anyone who would want to cover me.

I guess I will be making others sick again today. I'm sorry about that, but there is nothing I can do. Sometimes I wish that there was a law preventing us from going to work ill!

Even so at least everyone on the East Coast is finally safe from the threat of a Massive Snow Storm! LOL

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

Don't get your teeth knocked out by that football

I was at work Sunday and I was thinking about something. Every Sunday, I come home and sit and watch football, and I watch my Bills play or another good game on TV. I hear people say how we don't know the names of all 50 States in the U.S. I bet if you sat for a moment and thought it, you would never figure out the names of all 32 NFL teams. There I was at work, trying to figure this out, and luckily for me I don't have any hair to rip out, because I would have ripped it out. It might sound easy, but it isn't. Unless you have an NFL package with a cable, or a dish company, you wouldn't be able to see every game, and every team play. I finally got the chance to see the Texans play, and that was because they were playing my Bills.

Using the Honor System!

Here is a challenge for you (if you love football anyways). Sit down and see if you can figure out the names of all 32 teams. No Cheating! See how many of them you get.

Only in our Lost and Found!

Okay a typical lost and found would include keys, prescriptions, gloves, glasses, wallets, cards/ID's, umbrellas, and canes (we have a pimp cane).....right? First off, I just don't see how someone can lose there Credit Card or there license. That should be stuck to there hip! Then again so should a Walker. I thought it was weird before, when we had a woman lose her keys down the toilet! Now it seems normal compared to what we got on the 15th.

Don't worry, we've got the Tooth Fairy on this one. After all she is the world's best tooth expert, is she not?

How does one lose there dentures? I won't go any further with this, because someday, I may be one of those people who are gumming. You should have saw the look on my co-worker's face when the cart person brought them in.

Friday, November 17, 2006

For Mom!

I'm so glad that I couldn't take part in that insanity that was purchasing a PlayStation 3!

I wanted, I wanted one badly. I'm not an aggressive person, but I would have been to get a PS3. I like video games, but I am not going to wait outside for 3 days, at a store, when there is as many as 10 systems per store. Sony should have waited until they had made about 5 million of those things. With that said, I think it was a sign for me to make a change.

Last year I made a promise, and I wanted to keep it. Then I found out that Sony was releasing the PS3. Then my selfish side began to rear it's ugly head. I had enough money to get both, but then that would mean I wouldn't be able to get a car next year (whole other story).

In any case, I realized that my selfishness was hurting me. It wasn't making me a good person. Our family is struggling to stay afloat financially and I am spending money on myself. I'm not rich, but I do help out.

We have been in this house for over ten years now. We had the same stove for that long, and it was on it's "last breath of gas". One of the burners caved in, and just about all of the switches melted off of it. Then there were the eyes on the stove that were still working (if you wanted to call it that). Some of the holes were clogged on the eyes. There wasn't any fire coming out of them. My mom wanted to buy a stove, but she didn't have the money. I wanted a PlayStation 3, but there wasn't that many. So what did I do? Well there are plenty of stoves out there, so I decided to make mom happy. I decided to buy her a new stove.

When I was a kid, I wasn't the best. I did some mean things, and I got some spankings and some stern talk from my mom. We both waited so long for each of us to do something.

She waited for me to do something unselfish, and I waited so long for her to say these words.

"You've come a long way from where you were"!

That meant so much to me. You just don't know! I know I keep my feelings to myself, but I hope she knows how much she means to me.

I love you MOM!

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

I'm Fine

At least that is what the tests are saying. Everything came back negative (say one problem), and I am happy about that, but I still have that pain off and on. I think I may have figured out what the cause of the pain is though. It's not as bad as it was before though. I think it is some how related to gas (no joke), my intestines, and with all of the junk food and fast food that I have been eating. I am going to have to cut it out of my diet.

That one problem I have is High Cholesterol, and I think that may play a factor in the pain as well. All of those greasy foods; high in fat, and cholesterol is wearing my body out. My doctor told me to go online and look for websites that relate to cholesterol lowering foods. Part of me is dreading this, because I know I will be in a junk food/fast food withdrawal state eventually. If I quit drinking soda, than I can quit the unhealthy foods too. Thanksgiving, I will have some of my moms banana pudding though.

Before I came home I went and bought Evanescence's new CD. I didn't know that it was released in October, because I was in hibernation mode because of the pain. So I missed just about everything I enjoy. I taped Lost and watched some of it, but I really can't say that I enjoyed it. Heck, I haven't even watched the Fall season finale yet. Basically I put my life on hold and kept everything and everyone at a distance, because I was in pain. I kind of used that as an excused to push some people away though.

When I came home yesterday, I had every intention of logging online, and posting an entry telling everyone that I was fine.

Reason #125 why things never go the way you plan:

I came home, and I laid down to absorb what I was told. "Nothing wrong GOOD; But how will I fight the temptation of buying the bad foods", played over and over again within the confines of my mind.

While I lie in my bed though, my plans to come online were being thwarted by an unknown entity. I think I have said this before. when I lie down, sometimes I sleep with my fan on. I had my fan on yesterday, and while I was in the midst of thinking, my fan had shut off. I got up and I decided to look out of the window, and I noticed that it was the electric company shutting us off. My Step-Father forgot to pay the bill. So there wasn't no post yesterday, and no Open Door on my MP3 to listen to as I walk to work. We didn't have our power on at all last night. In fact we just got it turned back on. So I am about to go and get my MP3 and upload the songs to it. I just wanted to let everyone know that I am fine. Thank you for caring, it really meant a lot to me just to know that somewhere someone thought of me. The world felt a little less lonely.


Friday, November 03, 2006

Why Don't We Have Tricorders?

My doctor's appointment was...Well...

I was a nervous wreck. I didn't get much sleep the night before my appointment. My mother drove me at 7 in the morning, to where the office was so I would know how to get there. Then she dropped me back off at home. As I went in the house, I decided to check my phone to see if anyone had called me. Why did I do this; I have no idea. I saw that my job had called me to see if I could work, because two of my co-workers both came down with a stomach bug. I guess they were puking up a storm. They had no one else, because the others were working on the front end. So I guess an abdomen hurting Charles is the next best thing.

I said yes --->Why did I do this; I have No Idea<---

I caught the city bus to Strong Memorial Hospital, so I could get off there and walk down to Borg Imaging. There is more than one, but this one was more convienient, because I know where the closest and most familar building (Strong) is.

I got there over an hour early, and they actually took me early too. I went to the wating room nearby the room where I was going to be scanned. They gave me two cups of this liquid that looked like Tang, and told me to drink it all. It may have looked like Tang, but it didn't taste like it. It had a funny cardboard like after-taste. After I finished drinking it, I chatted with an elderly couple about the procedure, because one of them had it done before, and she was there to get it done again. She got a red drink by the way and she said it tasted better (no fair...LOL). She tried to tell me that everything would be fine. In fact she told the nurse that was helping me that I was very nervous, and that she was worried about me.

When my time came, the nurse explained to me what the CT Scan was like. She said I would be placed on a table, and then I would be raised and then have my body put through a donut shaped machine. Funny thing is she said it would sound like a Dryer when they activated it, but to me it sounded more like one of those washer extractors at the laundrymat, during it's spin cycle. Then she went over some of procedures with me, and the possible side-effects of the IV Contrast.

Dehydration(CHECK), vomitting, (I didn't here nothing about feeling woozy) a feeling that one is urinating when they aren't, and a very very very pleasant warming sensation throughout ones body(CHECK). It was very pleasant. My crotch felt very comfy. (LMAO) The warming sensation was the fun part, but in order for me to get that pleasant feeling my arms came under fire again by the relentless forces of the Needle Republic. The nurse couldn't get it in on her first attempt, so she moved her attempt a little further down.

Honestly I panicked, because I don't like the feeling of when they put needles into my arm. They had to get me to relax, so she could get the needle into my vein. It hurts and it stiffens my arm afterwards. At one point when I was at work last night, it felt as if the needle was still inside my arm.

When we were done, they told me that my doctor will get the results in two days. If it had been something dire, i'm sure I would have been told sooner. My next appointment is on the 14th.

Crossing My Fingers!

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

In case you are wondering

Hi Everyone Hi Doctor Nick (You'd get it if you watched The Simpsons.)

In any case Hi Everyone. I'm sorry that I haven't been posting. I haven't been up to specs lately. For the last couple of months, I have been in some pain. Whether it has been discomfort, or full blown-I want to rip you to shreds and everyone else kind of pain. Not to mention some tenderness. Actually I've felt this pain long before the two months. I thought it would go away (and it did for awhile), but now its back and it's a worse. I think its from a combination of stress and neglect (I should have had this looked at in the beginning). Sunday when I spat up a little blood, that is when I decided to call for an appointment. The pain is located on the right side of my belly, in my abdominal area.

I went and saw a doctor yesterday. She told me that she doesn't think it's anything serious, but like I told her I am not good at describing how I feel. My doctor told me to drink Metamucil. Then she had me go and take a urine test, and for fun and torture some bloodwork. I swear, whenever I go there I get blood drawn, they can never get any from my right arm. Even with the wiggle and jiggle. So the left arm got some torture as well. Guess what one of my arms is going to be tortured even more, because tomorrow, I am going to have a CT Scan on my abdomen and my pelvis. There going to put an IV in my arm(first time for everything), and they said that it may burn a little at first. Needles and burning (poor arm). I also found out that I have to drink some funky liquid, that taste somewhat good (at least that is what the woman on the phone told me today). Then I have to wait an hour before it is absorbed throughout my body. Also I have to lie on a table for about 30 minutes while they perform the scan. Did I mention that I hate going to the Doctor?

Honestly I am a little nervous. I don't know what to expect, and I don't have anyone coming with me tomorrow. I do have someone thinking about me and lighting a candle for me though. That makes me feel better. Let me just say, that this isn't how I wanted to start my November, and my end to October....That wasn't good either.

Time to go have to get my Metamucil on! Wish me luck!

P.S. I haven't forgot about pimping you in the pimp joint Chris. I was going to do it tonight, but blogger won't let me upload any photos

Sunday, October 22, 2006

Week of Questions (Saturday's Question)

Well at least it was supposed to be Saturday's Question, but blogger decided that it wanted to throw a tantrum. It's funny how Blogger Beta is working better than Blogger.

Anyhoo, there was a grand total of 5 votes for my poll (LMAO)

Chris had three of them. Can you say Pimp Joint? Who is Chris you say? He is the famous blog chef who always makes me hungry with his recipes. He also gave me some advice on a book that I'm (trying) to read. Visit Inane Thoughts and Insane Ramblings, You may learn something, and you will definitely get a laugh or two.

Chris asks:

Have you ever done something that you later thought to yourself "I have become a horrible person"?

Well yeah, more than once. I'll tell you about one of them though.

When I was a kid my mom tried <--(key word there) to teach me how to share. I wouldn't listen, because I was a stubborn kid. When I got the Nintendo Entertainment System, my mother tried to make me let my brother play, but I wouldn't. She would threaten to take it away from me, but i'd call her bluff. Well eventually my N.E.S. broke, and my mom bought Jevon one. For a time Jevon wouldn't let me play either, and I think I deserved that. Fast forward to 1997 when I got my first job ever, for the summer. It was that short time when I got kicked out from my mom's house by my step-father. MY father had a friend, who had a twin brother that worked as a supervising janitor (I don't know what you call his title). Well after I got my first paycheck. My step-mom hinted that she wanted me to treat her and my dad to dinner. Did I take the hint? NO! Instead I spent my money on myself, buying some school clothes, comic books, and video games. Is that selfish or what? Now that I am older I realized that, that wasn't very thoughtful of me. You'd think I would have learned my lesson completely, but I didn't. I was blinded by something that I really wanted. So I was going to get the Playstation 3. Lucky for me, that there were only about 500,00 copies made, and only about nine will be sent to every store in the United States. I'm glad that this happened, because It gave me time to see my selfishness, and I realized that my mom needed some help. What did I do??? Well that answer will be saved for a future post. Lets just say helping my mom made me feel more fufilled than any ole video game ever will. Thanx Chris!

Thanx to everyone that took time out to ask me a Question.


Friday, October 20, 2006

Week of Questions (Friday's Question)

This question comes from X. Dell, owner of the blog, The X Spot.

Perhaps this is a loaded question, but I would be curious to know if you think racism in cyberspace is worse, equal to, or not as bad as racism in real life.

Real Life Racism

I have experienced it in real life before. I posted the experience (ironically in a question meme) on my AOL journal, but I can post that portion of it here.

1) What's the worst thing you've experienced as a black man living in New York?
When I was about 16 my mom and I were in downtown Rochester at the mall (its called Midtown). She invited me to the mall to have lunch with her and we were walking to CVS to get something, and a white (forgive me I don't really like using skin color) elderly woman was walking toward us and as she was walking by she said (forgive me for being a little blunt) a Bitch and a Ni*** and then she started laughing as she passed us. I was very angry, she called my mom a bitch and I felt that she disrespected her so I turned to...I don't know, but my mom yanked my arm and looked at me as if to say its okay. I was angry, and very sad at the same time, but I had to eventually let it go, because, I am gonna have to deal with it for the rest of my life. Its getting easier with time!

I have had a few other experiences as well. One of which happened while I was at work. It's not what the man said, it was how he treated me. It was as if he thought I was a lesser being than him. The manager pissed me off when she went well out of her way to help that customer too. I walked away pissed, and I went to a storage area to collect myself. I was going to quit, but a friend and a former co-worker convinced me to stay.

If someone detests me because of the color of my skin (which by the way we as a people have NO control over) than there is nothing I can do about that. They have there opinion and I have mines. I can't say that it doesn't bother me (it does), but I won't let someone's opinion on race have control over me. There is hate everywhere, and not only is it based on color or "race", but it's also hatred towards people who have different religious beliefs, and sexual preference. I don't have it in me to hate someone, even if they hurt me in some way. I will forgive, but I won't forget.

Online Racism

As far as racism online, I have never experienced it or had to deal with it. I heard that the KKK has a website online, but I won't humor myself to go and find out if it's true. I will stay in my neck of the woods and hopefully anyone who hates me based on my skin color will stay where they are.

Let me end this post by quoting my three favorite words when it comes to me not wanting to know when some kind of disaster ends the world (nuclear war, asteroid collision).

Ignorance is Bliss!

Thanx X.Dell

Thursday, October 19, 2006

Week of Questions (Thursday's Question)

This Question comes from Judith HeartSong, home of the Heartsong Award and a very great painter. I gave her question some thought, and you know what. I still find myself thinking about it as I'm writing this sentence

Judith asks:

What is your greatest dream?

Well Judith let me see!

Well I want to be happy (everyone does, right).

I want to live comfortably (I don't need to be rich).

I want to be a father someday.

I want my nephew to grow up happy and not go through the same living conditions I went through as a child. I don't want him sleeping on a couch or having a mattress with bedsprings sticking out of it. I wouldn't want that for any or my future nieces and nephews, or any children I may have in the future either.

I want to be able to trust people!

To find myself!

To become more independent!

To be able to call my dad.

To be able to make peace with myself in regards to my dad not being in my life as much as a parent should be (I wish I could have seen him everyday, or at least talked to him).

To find the love of my life!

Judith I could go on and on with this list of things, suffice it to say that the best dream I could ever have is one without worry or loneliness, and I worry about everything, including other people, and things I have no control over.

Judith, thanks for taking the time out to answer the question.

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

Week of Questions (Wednesday's Question)

This question comes from Kelly who had a weekly question meme that I liked called "Easy Question", that she used to do every Sunday in her AOL journal. (Easy Like Sunday Morning)

Here is her Question:

"How much schooling have you finished and what did you like most or least about it?"

Well Kelly I Graduated high school and I tried college two years later. I didn't want to say that I didn't ever try. I went to a college here in Rochester called MCC (Monroe Community College). Honestly, I am not good with college terms. I don't think I went a full semester. I think I took a quarter of college, and I did pretty good. I passed all of my classes, but one of them I barely passed. It was a business class, and I found out pretty quickly that it wasn't for me. As I got to know the place better, I realized that community college was a lot like high school (can we say DRAMA). Everyone was still acting like kids, and I still felt left out. Although truthfully there was this one guy that tried to reach out and make a friend, but I felt uncomfortable being there, so I did what I do best. I pushed any possible friendship with him away.

What I liked about college? Some of my teachers were nice, and my counselor helped me pick some of my classes even though he didn't have to. I liked the independence of it. I didn't have to worry about having my parent called. Although I would have liked both of my parents to be a bit more supportive, motivationally speaking.

What I disliked about college? It was like High School. I graduated high school and I was glad I didn't have to go back. Somehow in a way I ended up back in "High School" and I wanted out. I signed up for a second (quarter, semester...I dunno LOL), but my fears and my dislike caused me to drop all of my classes and do something else. I wish I kept at it though, I probably would have had a career that I liked, rather than a stressful job.

Thanks Kelly!

Oh and don't forget to check out In My Opinion. Its a great read!

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Week of Questions (Tuesday's Question)

So...Did you think about that sentence in my last post that I asked you to remember? Just in case here is what I said.

I guess it wasn't meant to be though.

Chelle who is the owner of the fantasy hockey league Pucks and Fat Lips (which I am going to win by the way), and the blog owner of Half Full or Half Empty (which I have read 1938389298383 times) asked me this question. It is a Toughie! As is Chelle's other question that is in the poll (PLUG) in my sidebar. Why not take a sec and pick the question you like me to ask.

Today's Question:

Do you believe in fate?

When my high school crush moved to Jacksonville that I thought to myself that being with her wasn't meant to be.

After I graduated high school I thought that I wouldn't live to see the age of 24.

I think fate is a tricky thing! If you are walking down the street and you bump into someone that you are attracted to, and the chemistry and whatnot is there, and you instantly hit things off, then perhaps its fate. However if you are turned down for something or by someone and you believed in your heart that it is meant to be, then is it fate?

Here I am posting this blog entry at the age of 31! I willed myself into believing that I wouldn't make it to the age of 24, in fact I contemplated suicide at one point. I felt as if I had no reason to live so I wanted it all to end. So I somehow tricked myself in to believing it would, and therefore wasted 5+ years of my life to depression.

Then there is Armageddon. "It's the end of the world". In some religious beliefs, God is supposed to bring an end to the Devil's reign on Earth. While doing this us sinners are going to be judged to see whether or not we are worthy of life or death. Whether its Heaven or Paradise! Whether it's Hell or Oblivion! One way or another the world as we know it is fated to end right?

Do I believe in fate? It depends on the circumstance!

Thanx Chelle

Monday, October 16, 2006

Week of Questions (Monday's Question)

I know I said that I wouldn't answer any anonymous comments, but the one (the only one) left on the post seemed a little intriguing.

The anonymous question was:

Have you ever been married, or in a serious relationship that you would have jumped off a cliff for that girl?

Have I...No! Let me explain

I have never been in a long-term relationship of any kind whatsoever. Part of me wishes that I was married, or in a relationship, but I don't feel like I'm ready. Don't get me wrong, my heart is there, but I am not confident in myself, and I don't feel like my social skills and abilities are mature enough. Then there is the issue of growing up in a home with a "man" that beat on my mother. Sometimes I question whether or not this has affected me in some way. I don't want to be like him, and yet I fear that somehow he has scarred me for life with that experience. I feel that the scars he left behind left a part of him (the part that I resent) embedded within me. It scares me, it prevents me from opening up to a woman that I like, right along with my other insecurities.

When I was in high school there was one girl that I would have jumped of a cliff for. I would have taken a bullet for her, I would give her a kidney...I would have given her my heart. I guess it wasn't meant to be though. Remember the previous sentence, because tomorrow's question has something to do with it!

Whoever your are anonymous commenter, thank you for leaving the question. I appreciated it!

Sunday, October 15, 2006

Week of Questions (Sunday's Question)

Since today is Sunday and we all know what Sunday is about for me this time of year I have decided to answer PrivatePigg's Question first.

Actually PrivatePigg gave me the option of answering any of two questions that he asked me. Since I don't know anything about baseball (I like it some of the time), I decided to answer his other question.

The Question is:

Will the Chicago Bears win the Super Bowl?

My answer is:

With all of the talk about The Philadelphia Eagles, and how this is Donovan Mcnabb's year, I think the Chicago Bears are being overlooked. Plus there isn't anyone in the AFC to challenge them (not even the Colts). I'm going to take a word from My brother Jevon's vocabulary and say that the Chicago Bears Defense is "Beastin". There defense is brutal. The way they dismantled my Bills was surprising to me. I thought that the the game would have been a "little bit" (a teeny weeny bit") closer. I know my Bills have a below average Offense, but there Defense is pretty good against the pass, and a bit lacking against the run.

The Bears went through about seven quarter backs within the last, what four years. Then all of a sudden Rex Grossman steps up and here comes Bernard Berrian (who's that? LOL), and lets not forget about Thomas Jones. It's kind of reminiscent of when Tom Brady and the "unknowns" from the Patriots won there first Super Bowl. So to answer your question, the Eagles don't stand a chance in the NFC Championship game. Here come the Bears. Yes they will Win the Super Bowl!

Thanx for asking the Question!

Friday, October 13, 2006

>>>Civilized<<< Gangsters???

There is something that has been nagging at me for awhile now. There is a comparison that I want to point out. I know this may seem a bit far-fetched, but bear with me. Oh and trust me, you won't see this coming!


1. Group of troublemaking young people: a group of young people who spend time together for social reasons and may engage in delinquent behavior.

2. Group of criminals: a group of people who work together for some criminal or antisocial purpose.

3. Group of workers: a group of people working together, especially a group of laborers.

Attack in gang: To attack somebody as a group.

Encarta ® World English Dictionary

Usually people in gangs are willing to commit unspeakable acts. Violence, uncaring, willing to do bodily harm to forcefully take something that belongs to others. A person or people could end up hurt in a hospital or worse (dead in a morgue).

It's things like this that disgust me. That a group of people can gang up on someone, to get something that does not belong to them. What purpose does this hold? Does it make them feel like men?

I don't think a real man would do such a thing.

A real man would help, rather than destroy our community....Right?

Well here is another example of a different gang of sorts!

This gang is destroying our community in a different way. They get you to vote for members of there party, and say they will do there best to help you. They make all of these promises, and don't carry them out (most of the time they don't even fulfill there promises) until damn near there next election campaign. They are always asking to raise our taxes, and then for a pay raise afterwards. They get way too much money if you ask me.

We pay them to talk about improving our government, our country, our community, but they don't do anything unless they get what they want in return (you scratch my back, and i'll scratch yours).

Now we know they don't commit murder, but they would murder a rival party member's career (scandal) if they had the opportunity to. C'mon you remember Watergate, White Water, and Monica Lewinski...Right?

Republican and Democrat they are like rivaling gangs (Bloods and Crips), vying for territory. In this case, the presidency and power over the House of and the Senate. They won't hesitate to bash on one another, while wasting our hard earned money (taxes). With all of the nonsense and the investigations they are slowly and surely beating us down and taking our money from us.


Enroll or take on somebody: to enroll somebody as a worker or member, or to take on people as workers or members.

Encarta ® World English Dictionary

Well you can't elect a government official without recruiting people to help you to get re-elected. They do all of the hard work, while the politician does all of the talking and hand-shaking. Gang members recruit members too. They convince a potential member that everything is cool and that it's like a family, when in actuality it's not. In the end it's every person for themselves.

Where is your gang at when you need them most?

Where is that politician at after you get him re-elected?

Then there is graffiti!

Even politicians have graffiti. Every election year, they bust out those signs and plaster them to just about every possible surface they can find. Now they ask people to put signs in there front lawns. Think its not graffiti. Well there is a town in my city that has made it law that those signs cannot be put up until 45 days before the election. Personally I would just ban them all together, there like an eye sore.

If any kind of difference is being made, it's being done slowly. Every time we elect one party to take control over the other, it's like we are taking one step forward and two steps back. One party does one thing right, the other comes along and says that it's wrong and they'll do it there way.

Global warming: One party thinks it exists and the other thinks it's not happening.

I will NOT vote, as long as these differences of opinions and the lack of making up ones mind exist, because we as a people (as the Human Race) are heading for trouble at the rate we are going and I don't want anything to do with it. I will just live in my little part of the world.

I WILL NOT VOTE! So stop trying to get me to! If so I will send you a copy of this blog post!


Just because you were a three piece suit, doesn't mean you civilized. Just because you carry a gun and force your will on another doesn't make you a man. Stop fighting and taking and help one another instead!

Saturday, October 07, 2006

Week of Questions Delayed a week!

I was going to do the week of questions (Read Previous Post) next week, but I only got six questions, and one of them was anonymous. So I decided to put it off until the week beginning October 15th, because I am hoping for at least 10 questions so I can put some of them in a poll. If you got a question you want to ask me. You something about me that you want to know about, or my opinions about something, ask away.

I think postponing it is a good idea in regards to my health to, as I have been feeling a fatigued as of late. I need to get back to eating healthy. I have an idea how too!

Until then I will be catching up on everyone's blogs and such.

"Own the Day"

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

Ask Away!

I have been thinking about doing this for some time now. I think it will be a little fun for me, so here goes....

Right here in this post, I am calling on everyone that reads to ask me a question. Ask me any question. I won't be able to answer them all though as there will only be one question answered per day, starting next Sunday, and ending on Saturday. However I will be putting up a poll for the question that I will answer on Friday the 13th (BoOoOoOoo). You the reader will get to pick which one will be answered.

The only thing I ask is that if you leave a comment, you must not leave it anonymously, because I won't be answering those. If you can't leave who you are, and whether or not you blog, then I can't answer it. Look at it this way, I will pimp your blog or site in the post.

By the way the winner of the poll gets to be pimped in the pimp joint, so you better make it a good question.

You can ask more than one question, but you must post them separately.

Questions must be written in the comment section of this post by this Saturday the 7th @ 11:59pm

So go ahead, Ask Away!

Thursday, September 28, 2006

What is Newsworthy?

The bank at my job was robbed this week!

It happened and just about everyone was oblivious of this, except the people at the bank. My co-worker and I was chatting about things going on in our life, and all of a sudden we see police officers dart inside. In shock we say, "what's going on". No one seemed to know, and then more police officers come in to the store. Then a couple of detectives come inside. At this point all of the cops are down at the bank talking to the employees there. Then it occurs to us what is happening. My co-worker goes outside to look at how many cop cars are out there. She comes back inside and says, "there are a lot of police cars outside, you should go see". I go out there and I see about seven squad cars, and three unmarked cars.

How does a person come into a bank and rob it without no one knowing though and while during the day. It was bold for that person to do it, that person must have been crazy, or an addict. I didn't see anything suspicious at all. I heard that the crook got away with about $1000, and is still at large. I hope they get this crook so that they won't rob anyone again. You'd think that it would be on the news, but it wasn't. I guess robbing a bank isn't news anymore. At least tell people that there is a possible threat out there. A small section in a paper, ten seconds on news show, something (be community driven). No telling what this person will do next time.

What is newsworthy?

What does it take?

Probably three men in full blown body armor, with automatic weapons, shooting up the place.

Seriously though, what do you think would make the news.

A person dying from cancer, that needs a bone marrow transplant.


Several people infected with a mysterious illness that ISN'T life threatening.

It's just sometimes I see stuff on the news that doesn't really need to be. We went months here hearing about J-Mac's performance in his final high school basketball game. I know he is autistic and I know what he did is awe inspiring, but to here it over and over again, it was well...too much.

I'm not trying to be insensitive, but there is more to life than "Shock and Awe".

Monday, September 25, 2006

Rant (I couldn't resist)

I don't think there is a such thing as a coincidence anymore. I know I said this before in a different way, but sometimes it seems life is a written book.


One day last week when I came home from work, Seinfeld happened to be on TV (The TV was on and no one was home by the way), and for some reason I listened to it while I was putting away some groceries that I bought. Jerry was trying his darndest to watch the Mets game that he taped on his VCR, and he didn't want to know the score until he was finished watching it. Every time He would pick up the phone and talk to someone, he would tell them that he taped the game, and he didn't want no one to tell him the score. Along comes Kramer, and he blurts it out, this in turn makes Jerry upset, and he loses any motivation he had to watch it. He didn't want to know the score, because it would ruin any suspense to the game. If you know the score, than you basically know the ending. For a show that is about "Nothing" I found myself relating to something. That is exactly how I feel, and I thought to myself that I hope that this doesn't ever happen to me.

T S O I #1(Tie-In story of importance):

About three years back, my boss lady couldn't find anyone that wanted to work on Sunday morning that was reliable. So she asked me if I wanted to do it, seeing how I want to see my Bills play (Go bills). "Sure Thing", I agree and she said it was mines. All parties were in agreement, that's the end of that right?


Here comes everyone requesting Sunday off ("Oh I have to go to a baby shower". "I have to go out of town". I'm being forced to go to a party". blah-blah-blah). There goes my Sunday Football down the drain. Boss lady and her assistant and one other person in my department are exempt from working on Sundays, because there full-time, and they have no problem with this. I have a problem, because Sunday mornings are suppose to be mines. There is me and Four others in our department, and one of them works in the office on Sunday. So that leaves me and three others. Guess what...We have to have an Opener(1), A Mid-shift(2), and a closer(3). So this leaves two others in reserve. One of them happens to run the front-end primarily, so we can eliminate her from this. One person is in reserve. What happens when someone gets taken out of work for some reason?


For the record, it's the part-timer that works in the office on Sundays that is out of work. My three other co-workers have been requesting Sunday off, or asking if they can open. So where does that leave me. I end up as the closer, while my boss lady or her assistant rotate between opening in the office and opening the desk for these last few weeks (Did I mention that they aren't supposed to work on Sundays because they would get time and a half).

T S O I #2

Saturday night, I decide that since I have to close the desk, I will tape the game. Guess what pops in my head? That episode of Seinfeld! I was hoping and praying that I wouldn't here anyone say who won or who lost, or what the freakin' score was. I just wanted to enjoy the game.

Bringing it all together:

Sunday afternoon, one of my regular customers comes up to the desk to play her numbers. I was upset, because I was missing the game. I guess it must of been noticeable, because she asked me what was wrong, I told her, and she started toying with me (well actually flirting...long story). She kept asking me if she could tell me the score and I kept saying NO. I explained to her that I was taping the game and I wanted to go home and see it, so finally she let me be and we both laughed it off. I guess another customer overheard our conversation and when I went over to do his bottles for him, he blurts out, "The Bills Lost, hey I couldn't resist".


How can you not resist, what you don't have any freaking will power.

Hey Dumbass!

If a woman came up to you and she had Gonorrhea and you don't have any protection, are you gonna just hop in the sack with her with her because you couldn't resist? I can see your epitaph now, "'Dumbass' couldn't resist a dare, even if it meant Jumping from atop Niagara Falls".

Well Mr. Dumbass your lucky I CAN resist my temptations. Mr. Dumbass your lucky that my job was motivation enough to keep me from doing some of the worst possible torture I could think of. Like sticking a shard of glass in just the right spot so you wouldn't ever speak again.

Your LUCKY I was able to restrain the very spiteful, and malevolent side of myself. I come into work and I serve these people, you think they would have the common sense, and the common courtesy to respect my wishes. I work my butt off to serve them, so don't I deserve to be able to come home, unwind, and enjoy myself after a hard days work. I guess Not! Sometimes I wish I had the ability to make people to see things through my eyes.

Saturday, September 23, 2006

Theory of a deadman (not the band, but me)

It's that time of year again!

That time of year when you wake up in the morning and discover that your shivering and freezing your butt off.

That time of year when the High Temperature is fluctuating between hot and cold.

That time of year when you start to bring out all of your long sleeve shirts, from out of storage.

It's that time of year again where I go and buy a descendant of my best friend and hope that we can be friends too. As long as it doesn't mind sacrificing itself for my nose.

Where I hear complaints about how cold it is.

Where all of the leaves fall off and die, but leaves (leafs) us a beautiful color show.

That time when my neighborhood seems more peaceful, because no one wants to be out on a cold day.

It's that time of year again, and I have a Theory.

The Autumnal Equinox (Sept. 23, 2006, 12:03 AM EDT) is here so you better be prepared. This means folks that The Fall is officially here, and that winter isn't far behind. Get prepared, because I have a feeling this is going to be a bad one. Why you ask, because I haven't had a fever all year long. The last time I went without having flu like symptoms, was in 1998. I didn't get sick at all that year, and the winter of '98 (December 1998-March of 1999) was a pretty bad one. We had a blizzard in March that nearly stopped everything in our city. People didn't have to go to work (unless you work in a grocery store), kids didn't have school, buses weren't running, and cars were getting stuck. This was the considered the blizzard of '99, and I think we had nearly three feet of snowfall in 48 hours. So unless I become ill within the next couple of months be afraid, be very afraid. No one on the east coast will be safe. I have felt tired, and weak from a lack of sleep, but I haven't been sick at all. Usually the erratic temperatures get to me, and turn me into a big moping baby mess.


I bet everyone going to put some kind of voodoo curse or a jinx on me now. "Hey Charles, achoo!" I better go and knock on some wood or something.

Oh and I forgot, first we have to fall back.

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

If a meme came an bit you on the butt...

1. You can press a button that will make any one person explode. Who would you blow up?

I have a growing list actually.

2. You can flip a switch that will wipe any band or musical artist out of existence. Which one will it be?

Alfonso Ribeiro

3. Who would you really like to just punch in the face?

There was this one lady that brought back five cans of nuts, oh then there was this guy that kept putting in cans that were not compatible with our can machine and he knew he wasn't supposed to. Oh then there is that woman that pissed me off, when she brought a propane tank in the store, which resulted in me punching the container that holds the tanks…Lets just say I would like to really throw a very long punch.

4. What is your favorite cheese?

Velveeta on some shells.

5. You can only have one kind of sandwich. Every sandwich ingredient known to humankind is at your immediate disposal. What kind will you make?

Pork Chop Sandwich. Mmmmmmmmmm, Pork!

6. You have the opportunity to sleep with the movie (porn counts) celebrity of your choice. We are talking no-strings-attached sex and it can only happen once. Who is the lucky celebrity of your choice?

Jada Pinkitt, but Will Smith would kill me with his “will-isms”

7. You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who do you pick?

C’mon anyone who reads this blog knows who I'd chose. I'd give you one guess, and her husband would kill me too. What’s up with me and adultery?

8. Now that you've slept with two different people in a row, you seem to be having an excellent day because you just came across a hundred-dollar bill on the sidewalk. Holy shit, a hundred bucks! How are you gonna spend it?

Save it towards my Playstation 3.

9. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?


“Now could we

Now could we

Now could we go
Get to cong, get to cong congo
Get to cong, get to cong congo”

10. Upon arrival to the aforementioned location, you get off the plane and discover another hundred-dollar bill. Shit! Now that you are in the new location, what are you gonna do?

“I need to go and lay my feet upon the stone
Where the first of us stood before, before, before

Where we came and played to revive our depleted souls
Where we went to forget our freedom was not our own
Where we went to hold onto the memory of way back home”

11. An angel appears out of Heaven and offers you a lifetime supply of the alcoholic beverage of your choice. It is...?

It is me telling the angel that he can pick whatever alcoholic beverage he wants, because he isn’t an angel. If he was he’d know that I am against people drinking alcohol. It’s poison, and the proof is in the drunken fools past, present, and future. I wonder if I was too harsh. Oh well!

12. Rufus appears out of nowhere with a time-traveling phone booth. You can go anytime in the PAST. What time are you traveling to and what are you going to do when you get there?

I’ll do a little research on slavery, then go back to the point where it was about to be introduced with a bazooka mind you and blow the son-of-gun to bits and pieces.

13. You discover a beautiful island upon which you may build your own society. You make the rules. What is the first rule you put into place?

(In a crazy tone of voice) NO ONE WILL STOP ME FROM EATING PORK NO MATTER WHERE I AM! Whether I am on a waterslide, or whether I am at a table. Whether I am walking a dog, or whether I am in a stable. I could be in the bathroom and NO ONE WOULD STOP ME FROM EATING MY PORK!

14. You have been given the opportunity to create the half-hour TV show of your own design. What is it called and what's the premise?

One thing is for sure; I have yet to see a TV show about a rich family that becomes poor, and have to move next door to an annoying poor family. The family that used to be wealthy ends up getting there motivation to become rich again from there determination to move away from the annoying destitute family, by using zany ideas and inventions based on there encounters with there bothersome neighbors. Eventually over time (the course of the series) this happens and a side effect of this is that the annoying poor family ends up rich too. They end up moving to the same locale as each other in the end. That sounds like a premise for a TV show.

15. What is your favorite curse word?

I guess I say them all about the same. Someone told me that dang is a cuss word now. I say dang every day. So dang is my favorite cuss word. DANG!

16. One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren't really doing anything, they're just standing around your bed. What do you do?

Question are they women mummies, because I’d get all touchy feely. A gropeathon. LMAO

17. Your house is on fire, holy shit! You have just enough time to run in there and grab ONE inanimate object. Don't worry, your loved ones and pets have already made it out safely.So what's the item?

I’d grab my little dresser like stand. It has my wallet, Gemini cup, keys, MP3 Player and a whole bunch of other stuff in it.

18. The Angel of Death has descended upon you. Fortunately, the Angel of Death is pretty cool and in a good mood, and it offers you a half-hour to do whatever you want before you bite it. Whatcha gonna do in that half-hour?

Ask the Angel of Death to give me some Radioactive Vegetables.

19. You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what's even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What's it gonna be?

It was no accident; I did it so I could get the ability of immortality.

20. You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?

What's up with these half an hour limits? It would be the day that I turned down a job at a company called Paychex. I could have been making a hell of a lot more there, than I am making at my current Job. The same woman that hired me at my current job, was going to hire me there, and I said no. Boy did I regret that. Here is a lesson for you, get your drivers license as soon as you can!

21. You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be? (the answer "nothing" doesn't count)

Watching a “so called man” beat my mom senseless when I was a child.

22. You got kicked out of the country for being a time-traveling heathen who sleeps with celebrities and has super-powers. But check out this cool shit... you can move to anywhere else in the world! Bitchin'! What country are you going to live in now?

A country that I could take over and rule for eternity. I am immortal after all.

23. This question still counts, even for those of you who are under age. Check it out. You have been eternally banned from every single bar in the world except for ONE. Which one is it gonna be?

What was I doing? Did someone spike my punch? I don’t do clubs; it must be that twin that everyone has.

24. Hopefully you didn't mention this in the super-powers question.... If you did, then we'll just expand on that. Check it out... Suddenly, you have gained the ability to FLOAT!!! Whose house are you going to float to first, and be like "Dude, check it out... I can FLOAT!"?

What kind of question is this? LOL I guess I would float by a pilot house that lost there job for FWI (flying while intoxicated). nya nya nya-nya nya, you can’t get me.

25. The constant absorption of magical moonbeams mixed with the radioactive vegetables you consumed earlier has given you the ability to resurrect the dead famous-person of your choice. So which celebrity will you bring back to life?

It will have to wait until William Shatner dies, because the world will end when he dies. I will have to resurrect him and give him some radioactive vegetables so he won't kick the bucket again. He must live or else we will die with him. There is no world after James T. Kirk!

26. The Celestial Gates of Beyond have opened, much to your surprise because you didn't think such a thing existed. Death appears. As it turns out, Death is actually a pretty cool entity, and happens to be in a fantastic mood. Death offers to return the friend/family-member/person/etc. of your choice to the living world. Who will you bring back?

My cousin John. He was murdered, and his murderer was never captured.

27. What's your theme song?

Memory of Light and Wave.

Since I was tagged by Ari, I have decided that someone else needs to endure this torture as well (not really torture it was fun(ny). Jodi and Stephaine your are up.

Monday, September 18, 2006

Mini-Video Game Hiatus

It's been nearly a week again.


I thought I would be posting regularly again, but I guess work has been draining me emotionally. For that reason I decided to keep from posting, unless you want to here a slab of whining and complaining.

"I'm tired"

"Someone please kill me"

"I wish I could have when that stupid Mega Millions jackpot" (I won a lousy three dollars)

Yes work does this to you, unless you have employment that you enjoy.

So I bet you have been wondering what I have been up to the last six days. No I didn't think so either, but I will tell you anyways.

I have been entertaining myself with an old video game, that I told myself that I would never beat. Of course, I decided to use the guide, because I didn't want to miss out on some of the hidden stuff.

What is the game called?


Well actually it's Xenosaga II. I already beat the first one, without the guide book mind you. It's a good game and all, it's kind of like final fantasy.

Anyways I beat the main storyline of the game, but there are some hidden bosses (one of which reminds me of Voltron or The Power Rangers Mega Zord) more powerful than the "final boss" and other side-quests or "Mini-Games" that I want to finish up before I go and buy the third and final Xenosaga game. The mini-games in this game are called "Good Samaritan". You go around helping people in need, and you get rewarded for it. Well I am on GS campaign #32 (For The Captain). Captain Matthews runs a ship that he kind of owns called the Elsa. Well The captain has run up a HUGE debt.


It's up to YOU to pay off his debt. Well I am doing this the way the guide suggested. Unlike your everyday garden variety video game, you have the luxury of fighting "The Patriarch" (final boss) over and over again as much as you want without having to start the game all over, or in some cases starting where you left off, at the same level of strength you were at where you last saved it. In Xenosaga 2, I get to fight Patriarch over and over again as much as I want and I can save it when I am done and then start back on the Elsa just before the battle begins. In fact after the battle I get more experience points which levels my players up and make them stronger.

Well I have to keep fighting the Patriarch so I can get a rare item from him Called Awakening IV. It's worth 500,000G. If you do the math, I have to fight the boss roughly 20 times.

I'm having fun with it though, because I get to see the final scenes of the game. This game have some good quotes, that could rival some of the greatest movies, but towards the end they get better. The scenes at the end are the best scenes of the game in fact I now have a new favorite quote thanks to the funny, and cracked character called Albedo. His character steals the show. In fact most of his quotes were memorable.

My favorite quote used to be from Star Trek II: Wrath of Khan. Kirk tells Khan:

Still, "old friend." You've managed to kill everyone else but like a poor marksman, you keep missing the target.

Picture this:

Albedo was struck down by a beam of energy from a giant weapon called Proto Omega. He starts laughing and says that these people are amazing, because they are trying to "wipe him from the cosmos". Albedo is immortal, so he doesn't feel any pain as his body is slowly being disintegrated. Albedo is sitting there laughing as his twin brother and "bitter enemy" Rubedo (one of the playable characters of the game) runs up towards him. Albedo's last words before he is completely vaporized is, "Hey, Rubedo. Don't forget to breathe deep and inhale the particles that composed me." Then he continues with his maniacal/evil laughter until his body is no more.

I LOVED THAT quote, IT WAS GOOD. It kind of reminds me of something I'd say at some point.

If you were wondering, this is what I have been up too lately. Nine "Awakening IV's" down, eleven more to go.

Who knows maybe I will be back tomorrow, maybe next Tuesday. I will be back though. Oh and by the way to my fantasy football opponents, I'm going to be 2-0 now. I'm on a roll now You can't stop me. Plus I did it without one of my better players (Steve Smith). What do you have to say about that.