This is going to be a toughie!
I am going to take a page out of A Character from Star Trek: The Next Generation's book, and use it. Ensign Robin Lefler, portrayed by Ashley Judd, had a list of rules that she calls, "Lefler's Laws". She had a 103 by the way. I don't know how many I will have, but I'm hoping that if I see them rather than store them in my head I will remember them and stick to it. Maybe it will help better me somehow. Like Everyday Life, this won't be a recurring thing. I was thinking about Every Wednesday, but There is no Guarantee that I will come up with one every week. Besides trying to follow every rule would probably become overkill. I need to absorb one at a time. I haven't come up with a name for this, but eventually I will.
Be yourself NO matter what!
I have often found myself doing and saying things around others to suit them. I done this for friends, but mostly for family. I held back my feelings, and I let them think that we were on the same page, when we weren't. When it came to friends, I gave in to peer pressure, and compromised my integrity, just so I could belong.
I'm tired of trying to please others so I can belong. It's making me feel more weary than when I am alone. It's way more easy being Charles, instead of becoming someone else's idea of "Charles".
So anyone that can't accept me as me, has no business in my life. I may never find love, and I may never find a friend that I can rely on, but at least I will be happier alone as myself.
This is an ongoing process. I may have a few roadblocks, but I MUST remember this post, and that if I fall off of the horse, I just have to get back on and ride it again.
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