Three Months Down

December 27th, 2006, I decided that I wouldn't eat certain foods for a whole year, and while I did fail at preventing myself from eating one of the types of foods listed, I'm still continuing on with the ones I haven't given into.

The whole purpose of this ordeal was because of high cholesterol and lack of energy, self-esteem, and because I'm not in shape. Also because all of those sweets that I have been eating will eventually catch up to me, and I don't think that I would like the consequences of that.

It has been a rough three months. At first I was dying for my Little Debbie Snacks, but then eventually that craving went away. I actually walked by a display at work, and thought to myself, "eh...Not interested". So I'd like to think that I am doing pretty well. I haven't been to a McDonald's, Burger King, or a Wendy's since either. Hopefully I can keep it that way too.

I can't deny that there have been cravings. In fact, last week I had a dream that I was eating a tub of sugar cookies that I used to buy at work. I could taste them in my sleep, and I didn't have a care in the world. It was as if I was in some other Charles' body in some other dimension eating a big bowl of cookies and loving it. Cookie Monster had nothing on me in that dream, and when I woke up I wanted to strangle that dream. I felt as if my sub-conscience is in a battle with my will power for control of my eating habits. What I want to know is, who has dreams about eating??? First time that I recall ever having a dream like that.

However I did do one thing that I have mixed feelings about. I drunk and energy drink from Mountain Dew. I kind of feel bad for doing it, but at the same time I don't. Doesn't make sense right!!! Well Last Sunday (not this past one, but the one before) I was so tired, because I didn't get any sleep the two nights before. I came to work exhausted, and as we all know fatigue isn't a valid reason to call in. So the whole time I'm at work I am standing there, and the only thing keeping me from falling over is whatever it is that I am leaning on. I only used what energy I had to stand on my own when I was helping a customer. I had to constantly, and consciously will my eyes to stay open. In fact I think I dozed off in front of my register for about 10 seconds.

After that I decided that I needed an energy boost. My coworker suggested that I try Mountain Dew's MDX. She said she took it and the next thing she new she was wide awake. So I decided that I had no choice. I took a few sips of it and ten minutes later I was bouncing off of the walls. She was right, that stuff did wake me up, and that is why I have mixed feelings about drinking it. I didn't drink it all, only 10 sips (if that).

All of this makes me wonder what I will do on December 28th 2007. (yeah I'm optimistic)