Friday, October 21, 2011

Escaping Reality

Yeah, it's been awhile...Again!

I haven't posted, I won't give any excuses, as I don't have any really. I've been spending my free time playing video games as of late. Not that I don't have anything better to do, because I have tons of stuff better to do. Lately, I've just been having a hard time dealing with reality. Instead of facing the struggles I've been having with myself, and low self-esteem. I've been just coming home, and staying hidden within my home. Mainly within the dark confines of my bedroom.

Work, Home, Sleep, with video gaming thrown somewhere in between. To be honest, I have a difficult time in the "real world". Social situations, life in the ghetto, No friends to speak of really. I even recently pushed some family members away, because of my battle with anxiety. The only real thing I have been enjoying is video gaming. And its not so real is it?

While I'm sitting here righting, I'm debating on whether or not to even publish this.

So many emotions, so many disappointments, and so many fears. The real reason I didn't want to post anything, is because of what I had to post...this.

Will I click "Publish Post"?


Emily Suess said...

Yay! You did post it.

Ari said...

I do the same when I am under stress or I just need time to myself. I think everyone has their means of "escaping" and I don't think anything is wrong with that. Keep your chin up, sweetie.

Charles said...

Yeah I did Emily. Got it off of my chest.

Thanx I'll try Ari

Chuck Stern said...

It's hard to fight through depression, my friend. Video games are a far less harmful drug than many you could be indulging in.

Jeannette said...

I play games a lot instead of doing what I'm supposed to be doing. There's no harm in it and as the others have said there are worse ways to spend your time. We all need time away from the real world and when you're ready you'll be back. Nice to catch up with you again Charles. xx

Charles said...

Hi Jeanette :) thanx. Still though it's still running away for me. I want to be able to be around people. It's very tough sometimes.

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