Monday, February 08, 2016

Blockades

I have barriers! The kind that are intangible. They keep me from connecting to he outside world. They keep ne screaming on the inside. In the They are translucent on the outside, but on the inside there are words.

Reminders

Scars

You are ugly
Your handwriting is ugly
Everything about you is ugly
You are scarred by your bout with cancer  and no woman will ever want to be with you
You can't relate to others so don't bother
You suck at conversation
Nobody likes you
You don't have any reason to live
You should just kill yourself
Nothing special about  you

Constantly reminding me from the moment I awake until I lay down to fall asleep. They get louder when I make contact with people. Notice how I said they. They've seem to taken on a life of their own, living a better life than me.